as we grew up, people pumped us full of big ideas and an idyllic outlook. an outlook that suggests the world is ours to shape, ours to take, and ours to conquor. i am often still full of the naieve that optimism. and i like it.
but sometimes, what i call positive outlook and others seem to call my 20 something "inexperience" is all but smashed. and honestly, i expereince a sense of loss. it's like the last little bit of my youth is being chipped away piece by piece as i get more into the system in which we live.
i had to explain it to someone today and i called it disillusionment.
it's kind of stinky feeling.
as i was processed though some of those thoughts today, i had a few thoughts that eased my mind:
i can still put on a skirt that twirls and feel pretty.
i can read a book and get lost in the story.
i can go for a run and listen to loud, fun music.
i can watch a half hour show, where all the problems are solved and everything always turns out happy.
like...."the facts of life"? i LOVED it.
doesn't that theme song just make you happy!?!
