faith is...
"the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen." hebrews 11.1
yes i know that. yes i believe that.
with all my heart.
i believe that God will fulfill all the promises He has made me and to all those who know him.
i believe that in the end Jesus wins.
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sometimes, that is the truth that i must repeat to myself over and over again: Jesus wins, have faith.
this has been one of those weeks.
one of those weeks where things happen that have no explaination.
one of those weeks where you say "ok God, i know what you want me to learn...got it."
one of those weeks where you can clearly see the blessings even when they get all tangled up.
one of those weeks where you ask "just give me the next step...i don't need the whole plan...just the next step."
it's been one of those weeks.
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since coming back from china, I feel like i have had several of those weeks.
when you come home from a big experience, it always feels a little like a let down. we've all experienced that. i am sure you have too, right?
but this has been so much more than that.
when God changes your heart, it's like you are just unsettled
- like all the things you used to know are nothing compared to all the things you know now.
- like you know what's out there, but you don't know what to do with what you know.
- like the things you used to do just aren't good enough any more.
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at Igniter (youth group) we sing:
Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I go from nothing to
Eternity
(Hillsong - Hosanna)
This song seems to have some new meaning for me.
After seeing what we saw, and knowing what we know...
sometimes the only thing that can get you through is faith.
FAITH.
it's a big word.
with an even bigger meaning.
but everything it encompasses is there, resting just within my grasp.
(He won't ever put it out of reach.)
and i cling.
hard.
repeating.
He will win.
have faith.
He will win.
by faith ... you too will win.